Sometimes the Word comes when we least expect it. Yesterday it came to me in the form on the message from Pastor Jane Quandt of the church I attend. Based on the spiritual and theological questions raised by the movie Gravity, it is worth a listen because it asks us to looks at the things we attach ourselves to. http://fccriverside.org/archive/2014-02-02/Sermon.mp3 Life, it seems, does not just happen. We choose our attachments. And once tethered to those attachments, we choose to remain attached until we choose otherwise.
The above message woke me to the fact that I do indeed need to examine my current attachments. And there are many. Attachments to people, to things, to ideas, values and beliefs. What I have not done in some time is examine those that are life affirming and those that are life denying. Jane used the scripture from Mathew 6:21 which reads: "Where you treasure is, there will your heart be." She pointed out that it is where we choose to attach ourselves is where our hearts follow. And we make that choice. Every moment. Every day.
So I am looking at those now and I have to say I am concerned and a bit afraid. There are beliefs and values I have once again attached myself to that I must now look at untethering myself to. It is scary. Without a tether to these anchors, I might spin off into space...much like the Sandra Bullock character does in Gravity. And then there are the people. Some are my source of joy and nourishment. They uplift and support me. Then there are those others. Letting go and moving on is never easy. For those on either end of the tether.
I guess I am suffering from a bit of "existential verigo" as Jane described it. But where do I want to go? That is the question I am asking myself these days. What are the beliefs and values I want to attach myself to? Who is the one I should give my "treasure" to? Where must I make my investments? I'm beginning to think it is true life is a constant state a flux, of change and of evolution.
Time to clean up my act....again. Time to choose again. Deep breath. And remembering to be grateful...grateful for the life I have been given along with the ability to be able to choose. I am truly blessed.