Curbing My Excitement

Again today, something strange happened to me.  I am beginning to wonder about this New Year, this 2015.  Yesterday was about an epiphany.  Today its about, well, I guess its about trust.  Or maybe its about knowing that things will work out just fine.  And there is no reason not to accept good fortune when it comes by way...without guilt.  But even talking about it, I realize I am superstitious about some things.  Don't want to "jinx" it.  

What, you might ask, am I talking about?  Well, its simple.  For about three months now I have been in the throws of replacing my beloved 2002 Jeep Grand Cherokee that had a major stroke in October when it blew a head gasket.  Now even writing that, I feel so materialistic, but, I do need transportation...sold, reliable, earth-friendly transportation.   I need a vehicle to transport myself places, to transport others, to carry my dogs and, well, that is safe.

Today after much research and with the assistance of an auto broker, I think I found that vehicle.  It is a 2015 Suburu Outback.  Green.  It has lots of bells and whistles that I have to admit appeal to my ego.  But it also has a raft of safety features: rear view camera, drive assist, Eyesight (a feature that senses objects around you and gives you the heads up when you're too close to another car.  It actually will slow you down!  I am convinced I need these features.  I won't go into detail, but age and such is taking its toll.  Well, that is a bit of an exagergation, but the fact is, in today's traffic environment, I need all the help I can get.

So what's the problem?  I got a loan with a good rate, payments I can afford thanks to my financial advisor's guidance and advice (I need her too).  It is even a gorgeous shade of green that makes it different from  the run of the mill cars on the road.  I like different.

So, again, what's the problem?  That little voice in my head keeps saying, "don't get too excited."  Crud.  I hate that voice.  I know it is just my good sense trying to keep me safe.  But come on.  Oh well, I won't know until tomorrow for sure.  And if it doesn't work out, there are other Suburu's that will come along.  (Apparently this particular model with all I wanted on it it hard to find, just rolling out, etc.).  

So maybe I will get just a tad excited.  Even just at the possibility.  Dreams are not bad.  Its making them happen.  And accepting the dreams coming true are really a good thing.  (Little voice cries out, "Really?  A new car is a dream come true?  Really?  Just transportation, just a means to get around.  Why not a Mazda 2 or a Smartcar?  Not that there's anything wrong with those.)

Okay, stay tuned.  In the meantime, I will curb my excitement.  After all, happiness comes from within, not our "stuff".  But the right "stuff" can help.

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