I woke up at 3:45am this morning. My mind was racing. I was all enthused about beginning to write this blog. Ideas were free-floating through my mind. I reached for my smart phone to make notes in an email to send to myself. It was so lucid. Now, hours later, after some more sleep, I find myself thinking about putting it off. Enough! Here goes.
Getting started is the most difficult part of anything I do. Sticking with it until the end is second. If I just get to it, I really feel much better. If I carry on through the task at hand, I always feel so much better. Progress of any kind on any project always feels good. Yet, when I try to remember those good feelings, I still am inclined to stop and do something else. Check Facebook, email, eat something, take a nap, etc. Procrastination is an addiction...or is it? I am not really sure. But I do intend to break the happen. No, don't intend. I am breaking the habit. Here and now. I hereby declare I am no longer a procratinator! (I know there are those of you who will remind me of this declaration and I know I will rue the day...for a moment...I ever said anything. But that is a choice I will no longer make. I will choose to say thank you for the reminder...and thank you for reminding me I said that, too).
Doing nothing is an action. The action is the result of whatever I am feeling about the task. Who will care if I work on my writing works in progress? Who will notice if I don't go photoshooting? Who will be concerned if I don't exercise, eat right, wash the dishes, do laundry? Ultimately, it is all up to me.
A lot of the things I want to do, feel called to do, hear the voice of inspiration to do, I always think: I'm not good enough. I don't have what it takes. I fear failure. I fear success. I fear whatever. And there you have the real reason to procrastinate. Nothing ventured, nothing gained...but nothing risked either.
So that is why on this first day of Lent I am giving up procrastination. I will do it. Whatever "it" is. I may not always succeed, but that is no reason to put of trying, to avoid doing. Living in potential is a comfortable, safe place to be. Living in actualization of that potential is living the dream, whatever that dream may be.
I will write this blog every day on a specific thing I want to give up. I will update on the things I have moved to give up as we go along. I invite you to come along with me. You can comment here, send me a private email, comment on Facebook or whatever you choose. Or you can simply read the blogs and enjoy. Be careful though, you might learn something. I believe I am going to and I refuse to put it off!