So what is this reality I speak of? Well, it is the fact that I am not always completely honest with folks. I often say "yes" when what I really want to say is "no." I did it just tonight. I agreed to take a position in an organization I believe in, but don't really want to be immersed in. Why? Fear? Probably. Fear of not being liked? Guilt? All of the above? Probably.
And another thing I avoid is the frank talk. I have feelings. I just don't always feel comfortable telling people what I feel, what I want, what I don't want. I have boundaries; but sometimes those boundaries are not easy to find and if someone crosses them, I curse, but in silence and to myself. And plus that could lead to real feelings. Real feelings can lead to intimacy...not sex...but intimate feelings that can cause pain and suffering. Avoiding on the face of it is the easier road to take. But in the long run, well, you end up in isolation, alone with your feelings. And not much more.
Today I give up avoidance.
Only a few days left in this 40 Days of Giving up. It has been a journey so far. But its not over.