40 Days of Giving Up: Day 23 - Feeling Tired

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ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ  Hmmmm.  Maybe today I should give up being tired. That would be awesome.  Sometimes I don't seem to get enough sleep and I feel a bit off all day.  I sometimes take a nap, but that seems to make me even more tired for the rest of the day and it doesn't help me sleep that night.   Seems there is just so much sleep one can expect.  I'm tired just thinking about it.

I am tired a lot.  But something tells me it is not really tiredness I am feeling.  I actually sleep quite well, and I think I get enough exercise.  I eat fairly well, healthy, lots of fruits and vegetable and not a lot of red meat.  that's what makes me wonder if maybe it is something else.  Perhaps its this feeling being overwhelmed and under-motivated.   Why overwhelmed?  Well, that's a hard one to explain.  And under-motivated?  Well, that might just be old-fashioned laziness.

I say overwhelmed because when I make my lists of to-do's, it seems there is just so much to do.   I sometimes just want to go back to bed or go lay in the hammock or run away to a desert island.  The later is highly unlikely.  Too much work to maintain myself on a desert island.

Oh, well, maybe I am just whining here.  It is a bit of a rant.  But truly, I do want to give up this tired thing.  It occurs to me that the more I say to myself (or to anyone who'll listen) that I'm tired, I'm affirming just that.  I am confirming the negative.  I am saying to myself, "You are tired", and so I am.  SIgh.  That is madness.  I guess I need to be mindful of that and not tell myself I am tired.  Really.  I am not tired.  I am just energy challenged.  LOL

Seriously, the point of this for me seems to be that we are, or soon become, that which we tell ourselves we are.  I wake up and think how tired I am.  Not a great way to start any day.  Mindful!  I must consciously program a new inner "tape" to play.  Starting here.  Starting now.

Giving up tiredness.  Not giving in to it.  Because in many cases, it is just a state of mind.  And we can control our thoughts and feelings, at least we can control what we do with them and how we accept or reject them.  I reject being tired.   Soldier on.  I can do it.  Yep.  Tired no more.  That's me!

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