Those Times We Don't Get It Right

If you are always trying, you will never do it.

Forgive me those times I don't get it quite right...in fact when I get it very wrong.  For those times when I do the wrong thing, make mistakes or intentionally to the wrong thing, even if is for the "right" reason, or, if I don't do something when I should.  I often think about doing something that would be "nice" or make some "feel better" or would actually improve the status quo, but don't.

I don't think I'm lazy...well at least not terminally so.  Sometimes I just lack the energy or the verve it takes to take action.  I get shy.  I will cop to that.  I feel awkward.  I don't know what to say or how to say it.  But when I do, and it isn't quite right, well, give me some credit.  

Oh my goodness.  

I just realized it's not you at all!   It's me.  I don't give myself credito oftentimes.  I don't forgive myself when I should.  I have high expectations.  And after all these years and all the expectations that have led to naught, I should know better.  The best we can do is to do something.  Doing nothing is what gets us into a mess.   Look at congress.

Anyway, that's what came up for me today.  There are things I should do, I want to do, but I let shyness or fear or feeling awkward and clumsy keep me from moving forward.   Just for today I think I will feel those feelings and move forward anyway.  And just for today, I will forgive myself those times I don't get it right, because at least I tried.  And whatever I did, it was hopefully better than nothing.  

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